February 2012
36 posts
i should get a grip of myself.
end what im supposed to end, stop doing what im not supposed to.
drug and remedy.
why cant i have both.
i think that somehow i tend to attract difficult choices. either that or im really just fucked up. i know that there are certain points of time in life where u have to make some super difficult choices, work, family, love, whatever it is.
my whole life, since love came in, it had always been the biggest part. it may seem minor and shallow to many, because where would i put family and school at if...
dont know where i should head to again.
i dont believe in my own believes anymore.
i dont believe you anymore.
i dont know what to believe in anymore.
i think recently has been really shitty, although i constantly feel that im the luckiest person on earth, shitty things have happened.
firstly i have JUST got to know that a particular secret, according to me yes its a secret, that it is not a secret at all. somehow people have got to know about it. what the fuck i dont even care anymore, thats the least of my worries now.
i just want to get...
i dont know how to start this, i dont even know how it all started. one day and its.. just there all of a sudden.
surprised, shocked. confused.
didnt know how to react. blamed myself for being inexperienced. well not exactly, we all know thats not the right word.
i just didnt expect it to happen, and when it occurred to me, you have already became my marijuana. even though i ve never...
fuckkkk so everyone knows. how did they know about it!!! =.=
January 2012
72 posts
True or False?
1. had sex? yeah.
2. bought condoms? uh DUH.
3. gotten pregnant? no if not why the hell ll i buy condoms
4. failed a class? yeah chinese maths chemistry. fuck
5. kissed a boy? uh huh
6. kissed a girl? nope never been there
7. used a little paper bag for lunch? that ll be cool but no
8. had a job? yeah many
9. slipped on ice? many many fucking times
10. missed the school bus? i guess so. when i was too young to remember a shit
11. left the house without my wallet? yeah. its sucks
12. bullied someone on the internet? nope im a nice girl
13. sexted? whats that idk what is that
14. had sex in public? public as in many people watching? crazy or what no.
15. played on a sports team? yeah and my team lost
16. smoked weed? no but id love to try. dying to actually
17. smoked cigarettes? yeah a few times
18. smoked a cigar? prefer it to cigarettes actually
19. drank alcohol? . tonnes
20. watched “The Breakfast Club”? wtf is that
21. been overweight? not really. no
22. been underweight? i d love to be. but no
23. had an eating disorder? for a while. ate too much
24. been to a wedding? yes
25. made fun of someone for being fat? yeah my cousin
26. been on the computer for 5 hours straight? DUH. 24 hours actually
27. watched tv for 5 hours straight? nope not into tv
28. been late for work? yeah a few times
29. been late for school? many many times
30. kissed in the rain? no thats so romantic i want to try
31. showered with someone else? yeah
32. failed my drivers test? havnt took it
33. ran a mile in less than 10 minutes? siao i not dash
34. been outside my home country? im doing that now
35. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours? yes a few
36. had lice? LOL NO
37. gotten my heart broken? broken into pieces, put together and broke again
38. had a credit card? mastercard?
39. been to a professional sports game? yepp some bball game
40. broken a bone? nope. sprained alot tho
41. been unhappy about my weight? always.
42. won a trophy? yeah.. one or two
43. cut myself? when i was young and wild
44. had an STD? UHH. no
45. got engaged? no
46. been on a diet? #foreverdieting
47. tried out to be on a tv show? yeah a while ago.
48. rode in a taxi? yep
49. been to prom? yes
50. played a drinking game? yeah lost
51. stayed up for 24 hours or more? yepp 48 hours actually
52. been to a concert? air supply
53. had a three-some? no but sounds interesting
54. had a crush on someone of the same sex? had a few
55. been in a car accident? nope
56. had braces? nope
57. learned another language? yeah tried learning japanese and italian
58. killed an animal? cockroach?
59. been at a yard sale? nope
60. been to a japanese steakhouse? no
61. wore make up? yes
62. talked to someone via webcam? yes
63. lost my virginity before I was 16? no.
64. had my wisdom teeth taken out? yes
65. kissed someone a different race than myself? hmm yeah i guess so
66. snuck out of the house? yeah
67. bought porn? HAHAH who the hell buys porn when theres something call the internet
68. had a virus on my computer? yeah stupid windows
69. had oral sex? HAHAHA. wtf?
70. dyed my hair? brown
71. gone skinny dipping? nope but love to try
72. graduated from college? not yet
73. wore someone else’s clothes? boyfriend's
74. voted in a presidential election? nope
75. rode in an ambulance? no
76. rode in a helicopter? no
77. caught the stove on fire? yes once
78. got in a verbal fight? yeah with someone
79. met someone famous? yepp jay chou
80. been on vacation? yes
82. been on a boat? yes
81. been on an airplane? yes
83. broken something expensive? yeah FUCKING bag.
84. had surgery? no
85. kissed someone before I was 14? no
86. beat a video game? yepp
87. found something valuable on the ground? $50
88. made a survey? yes
89. stalked someone on a social network? HAHAH YEAH.
90. prank called someone? nope
92. spent over $100 shopping in one day? yes
91. been to a library outside of school? yes
93. cut my hair and hated it? yeah a few times
94. peed outside? HAHAHA YEAH
95. went fishing? nope
96. helped with charity? yes
97. taken a pregnancy test? nope
98. been rejected by a crush? a few times
99. been suspended from school? i dont remember. maybe no
100.broken a mirror? nope
